update

hi girls
Well thursday was a sad day, don't wanna tell too much about it just that I cried like a baby (that happens every now and then I guess). I decided I could be sad that day and should be back on my feet again the next day. And I did. The only thing left to say about this is: you will be missed.

So yesterdaymorning I got up, took a shower, took my meds just in case, put on some nice clothes and make up and went out. It was hard but I did it anyway, still trying to concer fear. I managed well I must say! I bought some clothes, shoes, and visited a befriended pharmasist and we tried out samples, perfumes etc, that did me good! I got a lot of samples and took them home and tried them ofcourse!
I was still on the shoe-hunt for my weddingshoes but couldn't find them but there was 1 shop left here in this small village so when Igor got home, and my sushi was ready, we went to that shop! Also not the right shoes so hopefully I will be able to go to Amersfoort next week and find them! I also bought some christmasgifts and ofcourse wrappingpaper!

Igor will be 30 soon and I thought this couldn't be "just" another birthday so I am trying to arrange different things, everybody is helping out and I love it! He will be so surprised (he's not reading my blog only if I ask him). I talked a lot on the phone yesterday to family and friends and that also strengthened me!

And today! I don't have to do anything but vacuumclean! So I watched a dvd (woke up at 6 am) and took care of the pets! Love to do that so they are spoiled rotten again! Now I am hungry again so I will dig in to my "stash" of sushi!!!
Have a great weekend!
xxx